22 november 2009(morning)

this morning my sister call me... she say wanna buy thing for me eat... izit they already know i hurt and don't want to eat ?? but i didn't care about it.... since i already say,when ning come back my side i only will eat thn i will wait until that time only eat.... izit me that bad ?? izit a chance u also cant gv me ?? i can do d thing,i already do... i duno what can i do anymore... ning,can u tell me ?? u tell me thn i will do it... anything also can.... i wish can accompany you but you meet me also don't want... u really so hate me ?? izit me like a ghost ?? even see me also cant ?? i really very sad... did u know ?? i know you wont know it because i didn't dare to tell u this... i always keep my feel inside my heart... i just want u to be happy,anything let me suffer then enough already... ning... i still waiting for u... i really didn't betray u... i can die for u,u are too important for me... i wont betray u,believe me.... our relationship not easy we get it... how come i will do such thing to make us saperate ?? i wont,never and imposible !! i love u... please come back my side !! i wait you...