19 november 2009

today happen a sad thing to me.... tis morning i call ning for a chat but she tell me dun disturb her life anymore.... i very sad and i say sry for calling to her house phone.... i told she i call to her house phone nt coz i wanna disturb her family,i juz cant call in to her hp... she told me,i change hp num coz i dun wan u disturb me anymore... she also tell me,we are imposible together again... its over.... i really very sad when i hear that,my morning mood become bad... i din feel to work.... while i work,i keep think about she... i call ming(ning's friend) to hav a chat... i told he everything... how we start and how we end... i really regret about tat... i blame myself for late to say sry to she.... after work,i take a present for ning... but the present hav a condition to open it... if she wanna open it,she muz back together with me.... after she receive the present,she told me call me to take it back because we are imposible... but i told she,one day when she wan to accept me again,thn she oni open it... i will wait she... after i gv she the present,i ask she to hav a dinner together but she told me,her bf coming to fetch she later... i really very sad to hear it.... after i hear it,i didnt go away from her house... i park my car aside from her house and wait for nothing... at that time,i also duno wat i thinking and wat i wan.... my brain are stuck.... after 1 hours,i feel angry coz i cant accept tat she hav a bf.... i call my dad to call tat guy... because tat guy already promise tat he wont together v ning again.... but he break promise... izit like tis d guy worth for u to love ?? i really cant accept it... a while later,ning throw back my present tat i give she juz nw back to me... i feel strange,i thought mayb tat guy call ning and told she wat i tell she... but i didn't do anything wrong... i juz remind he and he already break promise... is he willing to promise tat.... how can he blame me to tell he ?? when ning gv back my present to me,my tears are going to drop... but i tried to hang on... i know ning will go and find tat guy,i keep sit on car and c wat she gonna do... she really drive car go out.... in tat time,my tears drop from my eyes... i really cant control it.... i drive back home and tell ming about tat... i cry for it... i feel angry,sad and dissapointed... why she wanna did like tat to me ?? around 10.30pm,i worry about she so i drive out and park at her house again.... i hide and wanna c where she go and who she with... i wait until 11.40pm,finally ning back home le... but i didn't saw tat guy fetch she back home... izit like tis is a gentleman ?? he put a girl far away from her house and drive away... he let a girl walk back home at night ?? i saw ning d back oni because i park opposite of her house... but i already feel very happy because she is safe... i keep wait infront her house until 1.00am,i oni back home... i hope tomorrow will better thn today... i hope when i wake up,ning will forgive me....